A Dead Man’s Diary
Transcribed by and through Andrea
Date : 22/03/2007
My name is Jack and I am an interdimensional (3D/dimensional) being who assist within this process of bringing beings (dimensional and earth) to self- awareness. I have crossed over to the dimensions a long while ago so when I say 3D/ dimensional I mean that I have been integrated here within 3D as a dimensional being, thus I am able to be interdimensional. Therefore we call beings that pass over dimensional. I, as many others assist here in 3D (on earth).
I have decided to become apart of the new integration taking place between heaven and earth, where heaven assists earth to see and understand the truth of earth and each one’s reality in this world. Please do not confuse me with a religious follower, I have most certainly released myself from all forms of religious convictions and conformities. When I speak to you about my experiences it comes from me, specifically explaining and sharing my experience as I allow myself to expand my awareness, understanding and experience here on earth. When I share with you my experiences it is so that you are able to understand how extensively the dimensions have looked into the human mind and how it is that we are now able to assist our 3D counterparts (there is no more separation between heaven and earth).
Soon after I became aware that I wanted to assist humanity through understanding who each are as awareness, life and equality and placing practical awareness in application, I decided that it would be in the best interest of all if I used the many lives I had experienced here in 3D to give me insight into human psyche. So what I did was I reincarnated specifically to gain (through practical experience) understanding of the human experience in this world. In this story I give you an example of where I delved deep into what it is that sits within each and every human, driving them into their actions. I knew from the moment that I understood everything that we’ve perceived to be truth a lie (you’ll read more on that in Osho and Jesus channeling) I had to push myself to get answers. In the dimensions the 3D constructs existed as they do here on earth. War, religion, politics was also very prevalent in the dimensions (until recently), as there use to be parts within beings (dimensionally) that could not let go of who they were and their experience on earth because they still even in the dimensions after crossing over believed themselves to be who they are when they were still on earth. The dimensions were all living in their little imaginary worlds. Mostly beings die within a particular mind set or thought-beliefsystem construct and then upon reaching the dimensions (heaven) they appear to be caught with that same mind set or though-beliefsystem construct. Some would even come back to earth spreading more lies just so that their experience appears real to them. They appeared to revel in the idea that as long as those parts to which they have defined themselves according to mindset or thought-beliefsystem constructs existed, they would be fine. So beings would come to earth creating absolute chaos and lies so that others could create the same delusions as them to validate and justify their existences for themselves! Therefore many beings could stand within a particular application together.
The first life I had decided to experience for myself (within this application) is what occurs when you vent your frustrations into the 3D world (3D is what we call earth) striving for personal power and control of and over others. Ultimately if you look at your own ability to have strength in every given moment, it comes down to accessing some form of personal power. So I went into the mind set of the greatest personal power ‘rush’ on earth. War. It was in the time of the Great War (World War One) when all beings participating, did it with some hope of self- empowerment. If you look at war from this perspective, it might assist. War is never about good and evil, bad people versus good people or about morality conflicts. There is no such thing. So if you look at war now, you might understand that it is indeed the internal battle and conflict within self. People who desire power and control of and over others are merely stating that they do not have power over their own existence and cannot control their own existence, except through the harsh manipulation of others. The statement being: “If I can’t have power and control of and over my existence, I sure as hell will have over others.” Starting to see where I am going with this picture of war? Now imagine for a moment that I have integrated myself into the mentality thought-beliefsystem construct of an extremely volatile soldier. All that I really knew within myself, while doing this was that I was furious, filled with hatred and wanted to destroy as many realities as possible to shake the foundation of man. That was behind what I was projecting. So I chose the body of a Russian soldier so that I could fight all those who would dare defend themselves with their anarchy and lies! If you look at war you will see that each being believes this to be true within their experience of ‘fighting for what is right!’ Everyone else is wrong and they have the right to murder and kill another for their belief. So when I was still in the dimensions choosing my body I inserted that mentality as myself, so that I could understand taking ones inner battle and conflict, self hatred and fury to the extreme.
What better place to take such applications to the extreme than in the middle of a war! So off I went creating what appeared to be the angriest most furious soldier ever. By create I mean chose my personality, body, anger, fury and self-hatred levels! I was the meanest most inconsiderate, self-centered man, with no respect to others. I killed many soldiers. I however also became so overwrought with sorrow that I realised that it was not within me to actually follow this path (forever) and soon died on the battle ground from a single shot to my chest (this moment was an actual decision to leave). What started as an exercise to prove anger ‘right’ I ended up back in the dimensions with such sorrow. Indeed it was sorrow; I walked with my pride and my soul in tatters. Hanging from me in mere shadows, was what use to be the original man, filled with the desire to be proud. What I did realize was the following: no matter where I go or who I become I will always find the truth behind every lie. Therefore today I always look back at those moments where I lost the truth. I had seen from the dimensions how humans were destroying everything and I realized in those moments that within me was such anger that it would never go away. I experienced such anger that I never even saw the gentler route, and perceived my only understanding of the solution to be anger. So it was well into this anger that I decided to go partake in some fighting and brutal slaying! Not even then did I recognize what it was that I was not willing to see. I was never even once willing to perceive myself able of the gentler way of dealing with this intense anger. Therefore off I went! I partook in one of the greatest wars ever conceived in human history. I was merely there to show myself that I was not this, and unfortunately had to take this extensive route.
You see as part of our training for process (what has currently stepped forth between heaven and earth) we prepared ourselves by delving deep into our own desires, beliefsystems, perceptions and thoughts. We would delve into the extremes of feelings and emotions to ensure that we could stand when faced with these points again. Now, from this realization I came to the understanding that war however bloody and gruesome, is not the solution to your inner battles and conflicts. The battle with inner demons and conflicts is however the foundation of creation that steps forth when you place this experience of oneself outside (as if fighting and battling with others) and is not the solution. There in was how I became myself from realizing that nothing matters but who I am in any given moment. I realized when I became so angry that as all humans do I wanted to project the anger, fury, self-hatred, inner conflicts and battles outside myself through beating or punching something! So I did, however brutal, but it was necessary for me to transcend my fear of anger. Anger is not my enemy, for as we awaken this reality through this process I have stood before anger so many times, watching as humans destroys themselves. However within those moments I would immediately remember who I am and who I had become and where it is that I am heading. I cannot justify the brutality of war and I most certainly cannot permit those that unleash their anger, fury and self-hatred through the deliberate murdering of the innocent. I do however see what the experience of war did for me, as I grew from being furious to being able to give constructive direction.
Now I realise that process cannot work unless we experience where it is we’re going to. Process by the way is what we refer to as the self-realization as awareness, life and equality that each being will be experiencing through understanding, seeing and realising that they cannot live within this world’s lies, destruction and deceit anymore. We experience the pain of this reality (even in the dimensions) we understand suffering and pain as we strive to clear that which has beings in so much constant turmoil. All because we took ourselves to the extremes of each within our lives. From abuse, to murder, to rape, to war I have experienced it all, so that I can now stand clear and direct this world and each who experience themselves within it, out of it. It was my greatest obstacle that, to rape and torture another. I had to do that so that both my fears could be transcended. That which I was not willing to see within myself was the rapist, the man who dominates another into giving up all their integrity. The murderer is the being that takes life so that he can destroy himself. I have seen within both that it was not the man within me that desired the woman or lusts for blood, but rather the soul within me shedding the human mind. Now I realize that the judgment that I projected towards both incidents was unnecessary as well as cruel because for ‘years’ I had to work through my guilt. You see in the dimensions there is no forgiveness from God as there is no God, there’s only you. There is nothing that gives you the relief and peace that comes from being the so called ‘God’s children’. What forgives you of all doings is the God within yourself. The ability to realize where you come from when you do what you do as well as when you realize you have freedom from your experiences one you have forgiven yourself. Then you forgive yourself from the perspective that you now see where your experiences fit into your process of self-realisation as equality, life and awareness. Sometimes though beings project such anger toward themselves that they cannot forgive themselves. They hold onto their anger as if they can prevent these things from occurring again, like self-punishment of some sorts. Within that I found that it was highly upsetting and unnecessary to please others by holding onto your anger and through self-punishment, assuming you deserve such self-damnation!
Nobody on earth actually cares, because if they did they would ask you to set yourself free, assist you and support you. Instead humans deliberately keep each other locked within guilt, sorrow and self-punishment creating the ultimate inner conflict and battle to erupt eventually. You may let go of what it is you have done, forgive yourself, because you have freedom from all such things once you see and then stand up within yourself to never allow such applications and experiences again in your world. You may give up all the shame and judgment and create the new existence within yourself and therefore show others how it is possible to transcend through forgiveness, standing up, and living who you are as equality, life and awareness. By show I don’t mean become a religious leader waving your banner about either! Just be the freedom, equality and standing as who you are and you’ll see others see that within you. Do not hang onto the shame, sorrow and quilt that others tell you to hold onto, break free, set yourself free so that those that condemn you may walk free as well. We have all at some stage created things we later regret, that is for sure! I have walked the strangest paths from possessions to fears, to obsessions, to inner battles and conflicts, to anger, to self-hatred just so that I can now understand them and assist others who have experienced the same. I judge not that which I knew. I judge not that I allowed the rapist to exist within me because now I assist those that rape to free themselves from their own inner battles and conflicts, mindsets and thought-beliefsystems constructs which is not who they are. Those that assist other beings cannot even comprehend what it means to be that being as it is not within any being to conceive or comprehend of their experience. Do you realize that the rapist cannot control himself? Do you even understand why they do that? It came as a great shock to me to even start delving into the mind set of a rapist.
The greatest, most prominent application that exists in the mind of a rapist is control. They fear control so much that they actually attempt to destroy that which exists within them they cannot control, that being their own fears about who they have allowed themselves to become. Generally (I say generally as there are various forms of rapist) they cannot face themselves, it’s impossible for them. These feelings start when their parents (and society) project onto them the dislike we’re so use to experiencing in this world. Nobody is good enough. The rapist stands within a time loop, you see. Playing within these beings over and over is that which they cannot face about themselves and who they are. They cannot face their lack of control and power over what they have come to understand within themselves as their existence and relationship with others. They fear it’s potential and therefore they attempt through the action of rape to finally control and regain power within themselves and their existence. By potential I mean the inner consummation that occurs at the point where your mind allows thoughts to consume you, driving you to insanity. To us however (with good reason) it appears as if the rapist does it for lust. That is not entirely so, as the beings mind created the infatuation of sex to drive the being to losing control and power of themselves. Have you noticed how within the act of sex there is always the battle over control, the intertwining of limbs creating momentary fusion, through which the media have portrayed it as a form of control. Sex being a game of control. That is why sex is such a dominant issue within this world. The beings that want to control other beings (those seeking to control mind sets), just imprint images of continual sexual gratification into the minds of beings and they will become so obsessed and addicted that within that, can be controlled. From food, to jobs, to cars, men and woman are all driven to the idea of sex. So therefore the rapist can identify within him the need to not be controlled and unfortunately perceives the object of sex (the woman) to be the point of control. It is the greatest driving force within the mentality in society. Therefore the rapist will destroy the image that has been used to control, therefore destroying (mostly) the woman. The rape of children and men can be described within how the rapist perceives themselves. Almost like murder. If a man rapes a child, he actually destroys himself, as an innocent. To rape another man is to take away the ego that screams abuse at him all day. When a woman ‘rapes’ it can be linked to her extreme expression of herself, within the desire to break free from all controls. A form of standing up for herself! The actual act of rape is therefore the rapist destroying that which is the control and not for the sexual pleasure.
So, therefore I now work through these points with anybody. I work through them because I understand where they are projecting their desires from. Even though we work directly with the beings infinite (that part of you that we access that is dimensional and aware of your intentions), it takes quite a lot of pushing to get the being to understand their need to control and dominate. The beings that I have assisted thus far have been rapists, murderers and psychopaths (amongst many). I go right into their entire mind set as I speak to their infinites and I tell them what it is I see. It is fascinating watching the power that comes from mere thoughts and how it directs beings. It always fascinates me (excuse my frankness) to watch a murderer plan his/her ‘next’ attack. You see to murder another is yet again the example that I use, when a being cries within them to be released from their own minds. Unfortunately a person cannot just throw away the mind, therefore some get so obsessed with internalizing their inner conflicts and battles that they in turn externalise the desire for it to end. The being becomes very quiet as if they have nothing within them but this one thought. Then they appear to be dead within as if the dying of their victim occurs within the murderer first. They actually experience the death of themselves before they strike. Then as they kill the being it becomes them they see dying and not the victim! As they plunge that knife into their victim, it plays out in slow motion. I have seen the entire act as if it moves very slowly. It plays out slowly as the mind of the murderer ‘needs’ to be fully aware of what it is that is happening. I have often stood within a murderer whilst in the act and seen myself standing over ‘myself’ as I bleed to death. Remember that when I fully integrate into a being I can no longer see myself as separate, I fully experience myself within the beings experience. Initially this use to scare the living day lights out of me, as it takes a bit of adjusting to seeing yourself being murdered! It doesn’t even register to the murderer that in that given moment the being is indeed the victim and not themselves. Only once the murder is complete then they appeared to snap out of that moment and are then filled with guilt (sometimes, depending on their level of awareness). Some times I even found myself leaning over the victim (after wards) and crying due to the sheer magnitude of this deed. Yet, the desire to continuously murder themselves drives the murderer forward to do it again and again.
The psychopath can do nothing about not being obsessed. Often psychopaths are so deranged by their minds that no sense can be obtained about anything. I walked within a psychopath one day and it left me so bewildered! I was constantly confused. I had no clear thoughts, not even a murderer experiences such inner confusion. It is the continual battle between thoughts occurring as they twirl around inside the persons mind. There was once this man that I walked in for a week. Boy oh boy was I glad to walk out of that! He was this lonesome man living in the city, far removed from anything we perceive ‘everyday life’. He had no job (he lived on the ‘dole’), had no ‘friends’, no family and lived within a picture. This picture consisted of himself, a tiny figure, living in a room filled with more pictures. Literally his walls were covered with hundreds of pictures. From naked woman, to cars, to machinery. All pictures that the mind uses to depict power. So this tiny man would become engulfed within all these pictures. Day in and day out he was the object of whichever picture he glanced at. I found within myself that when ‘we’ looked at a picture I actually experienced a reality within that picture. This of course is the mind trapped in absolute confusion. Therefore the likeliness that a psychopath kills is much less than that of a murderer, due to their inability to focus. Once the picture plays itself out then they step out of the image again. It is the loneliest existence imaginable. Think for a moment about yourself trapped in the mind’s inability to focus, direct or even communicate. Only brief moments where they access reality (when they do manage to work or socialize). Therefore you’ll find psychopaths mostly reclusive and unable to communicate (words are not valid as they mind cannot find sense in them). The communication for such a being lies within how they perceive these pictures and thoughts. Therefore, they won’t speak much as they see and experience their thoughts. Of course in a psychopaths experience within their interaction with others it lies within their silence that they actually can communicate. You think a psychopath is quiet. No, they have so much movement in their minds. Entire realities playing out, it is incredibly disturbing to be in their minds. Non stop realities, repeating themselves and often interlinking. The psychopath cannot direct these thoughts, they are the minds own creation (even though their directional abilities would be the mind). They seem unable to even break any one of these realities as they have no other reality to refer to! They watch you living your reality and it ‘seems’ normal to them that they cannot escape from theirs. Seems society cannot blame just the psychopath for being caught up in stories, hey? The man I walked in was fond of cats. I kid you not. How often do you watch a movie where the psychopath is fond of cats, cooped up in a little flat with fifteen cats? Seriously though they find animals very relaxing, especially cats, as cats generally have very low energy levels and tend to project calmness (more so then dogs). So he did indeed have two cats which he found as little kittens behind a dumpster. He found within them the peace that otherwise he would not have had. They lived day in and day out as near to him as possible (to assist him in being calm). Unfortunately this man was actually murdered (ironic actually as you now look at the mind set of the murderer) for his dole money. All because he stopped to look at a picture pasted on a wall. It was of a man riding on a motor cycle. He was so transfixed by this image (of himself racing about on this motor bike) that four thugs jumped out and robbed him, stabbing him in the chest. Even as he fell to the ground clutching at the bleeding wound, he never once left his vivid experience he was in with the motor bike.
It was not for many years after I realised my choices that I walk freely from these actions. Therefore I walked with many regrets. I had to realize that what I had allowed was not the murder or rape itself but rather the opportunity to understand every possible inch within such a person’s mind. Now I use these ‘skill’s’ to assist the beings caught up in these spirals. I cannot begin to tell you the gratitude that I experience within me when I turn a murderer against his/her own mind. I once walked beside a man for four weeks, day in and day out just to speak to him when those thoughts arose. I would stay by his side, just incase the infinite was not aware and therefore could not stop him (the mind can be much stronger than the desires of either myself or an infinite). You see even though the infinite part of yourself feels everything occurring with you it still occurs that they miss the smallest refractions. Sometimes infinites miss entire actions due to how a beings mind is able to project their intentions. In order for the infinite (that dimensional part of you that is fully aware of your every move) to control/direct a being they have to stand clear of all thoughts, therefore the mind must be locked within a slow movement so that all movements are detected. You see the mind has the ability to project thoughts, leading the being along until they then strike, creating only mere moments within which the infinite must intervene. Often not an easy task. So I have since the beginning of this process used everything I have learned to control and direct the beings minds. I have walked beside those with immense sorrow, I have touched a child’s face when nobody knew of it’s pain, when all the child feel is it’s detriment creeping through like a final swoop. Often I have prevented children from collapsing with shock by merely staying within them, keeping them calm. It has been a long road from my perspective due to all the things I have had to face within humanity. I have even been the man responsible for the murdering of many, having beings executed by cross fire. I have made decisions that would affect beings lives and I have walked beside beings to their death. I have been inside a woman walking to the edge of a building and watched as we jumped to our death, with only mere thought going through the mind. The being only sees this one option, death to bring relief to their constant fear.
All done so that with what is to come I walk tall and strong as it takes absolute focus and specificity within those moments to reach clarity. By clarity I mean clearing the effects within this world when one being experiences something. When a being takes their life (for example) the effects spread throughout the world. Nothing that happens within this world, does not affect another, it is that simple. We are one therefore all share within each the actions of others. That means however that the moment something becomes a factual deed (meaning it occurred and there is no going back) all of existence experiences (just for a moment) the actual meaning of that deed. Hence the fact that beings in this world are trapped so extensively, due to the extensive nature of the current mind sets within us all on earth. The deed (e.g. suicide) projects from there the actual meaning of that deed to the world that all you can do when you’re world is apparently coming to an end is to commit suicide. That projection then floats throughout the world and all beings then get subjected to that energetic. Therefore the next being that thinks about their ‘world coming to an end’ will then interpret this experience with suicide! Fascinating watching the energy flow into a beings mind and become their thoughts. So what I do(and many thousands of beings do that assist 3D) is walk beside the being and redirect the intention away as the deed is done so that this may not occur again and all are free within their own processes of self-realization and awareness as equality and life.
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